Mental Block

Most times inspiration comes to me when I'm alone somewhere in a quiet place, completely lost in my thoughts, and some idea or another just floats into my head. The words come all at once and I  just start scribbling on whatever is near me, an index card, or a piece of scrap paper. At the end of these moments I often have a paper littered with random words and phrases, completely unorganized and scribbled all over. Since I find starting something the hardest part, after a period of brainstorming like this writing feels more natural and relaxed; the fear of coming up with nothing is gone. My favorite pieces have come out of these moments. 

During class today when we had to write iambic pentameter my mind felt all fuzzy and I couldn't get my thoughts together. I kept getting distracted by other people, the leaves scattered all over the ground, the ant that crawled onto my hand....to contribute to that, writing makes me feel vulnerable and I like to be alone when I'm composing something. The knowledge of a time limit (that always runs out way too fast) also made me feel anxious to write something quickly. But I guess if it were easy then I wouldn't have as much to learn from this class. Hopefully by the end of the semester I'll be able to get rid of that mental block during class composition, and be able to expand the areas in which I feel comfortable writing.