Busy

Busy to the point of exhaustion. A very common feeling these days. Sleep is no longer relaxing and refreshing, but a responsibility, another chore on the list. If I don’t get these 5 hours of sleep I will never finish my paper tomorrow. It concerns me when your hours of sleep become a movable commitment. Your diurnal patterns shift to more of a crepuscular trend and sleeping 3 hours at night and 2 at four in the afternoon become the norm. Your mind turns to a different mode. Where the usual daily tasks shift out of focus. Days no longer matter and each hour finds itself committed to a task. Your day is no longer run by little more than the rise and set of the sun, but strictly by the clock. Always checking it, anticipating and dreading the passage of time. It is just not a natural and certainly not a healthy way of living. Always stressed watching the clock. Your natural defense system reacting through fight or flight, not set off by the occasional scare of a lion, but by what time it is. Stress hormones are released and your body enters a survival mode. A way to sustain yourself in time of need. When every matter at hand seems like an emergency the system is overwhelmed and drained. Stress equals loss a of health. Loss health of can eventually lead to death. Living by the clock not the sun means death.